today i returned from auburn - an amazing visit which sadly had to end. thought of applying because of my experience this weekend, but realized how auburn wasn't made for me. it's nice to visit, but to go to school there is not what i have worked for.
i truly believe that senior year is the hardest. not just based on mine so far, but also on others. even if it isn't academically challenging for some, the emotional challenges overcome that absence. i know i have gone through so many more emotional changes this year, even in one day, than in any others. it's the realizations that get you. that sudden hit of reality of your future.
this weekend at auburn i felt as if i was in college, scattered away from my high school friends, remembering those days as if they were a distant memory. yes, i had fun meeting new people, but i can't help wonder how much i'll actually miss coming back to those people i've already grown close to. those who have known me and haven't characterized me based on a couple nights.
just another realization that keeps coming back, and i know there are still more to come. sure, junior year might be thought of as the hardest because of all the tests and requirements, but senior year has forced me to test myself. sounds cheesy, but it's true. | 
